Searching for Myself

Searching for Myself
.......by Debbie Pettengill

Feels good to know someone somewhere sometime thought exactly the way I think NOW...

I remember a time when my heart would sing out I remember the joy and what life was about
But something has happened to that girl I knew I wish I could find her but I haven't a clue

I search for the happiness that was taken away I search for my heart, every night, every day
A search that's exhausting, that gnaws at the mind I search for myself, for my heart I must find

It's a lonely road but the path holds just me It's a journey of rebirth, of trying to break free
But I will find my heart, somewhere on that road And remember once again of days long ago

To those people who try and get hurt none-the-less In trying to help me in this time of duress,
Please don't give up, remember me then Back in the days, when my smile came from within

I'm trying to find my way back to that place Where laughter and joy put a smile on my face
Where friends and family meant the world to me I pray that I find it, I pray to be free

I get scared sometimes of what I've become Will my heart stay like stone? But I can't succumb
I have to stay strong for what lies ahead I have nothing to fear, I have nothing to dread

The search for myself has been a long, lonely one But I will find me and lead me back to the sun
To a place not so distant, a place not unknown To a place I remember, a place I call home...